Days: 4 and 5

Day 4: My first love.

This one will be short and sweet. He was a great boyfriend. Sweet, caring, freaking hilarious, wanted to know everything there was about my CF and how to take care of me when I was sick, hard working, and so much more... I couldn't off been happier. I think I loved him but I don't have any other experiences of feeling that way to base it off of. We dated for 5 or 6 months, and they were a great 5 or 6 months. We just weren't meant to be. There was to much baggage and history between some of the closest people in our lives. It was a horrible break up and months later I find out that most of the break up was fake and I found out the real truth and reasoning. Then two more times later down the road, I thought maybe it can work between us now, but I always ended up with my heart broken, but now after 2 years I have finally moved, and he is getting ready to have a kid and I couldn't be more happy for him.

I learned a lot the two years he was apart of my life and I am glad I had those experiences. Sure some of them were bad and hurt but I learned a lot from them. Plus without all those bad times I would of never had the good and those I wouldn't trade for anything. The Jamba Juice dates and looking at the stairs, the months before we started dating where he became one of my best friends, helping me make my big college decisions (It's because of him I ended up at unr and I love it here),the late night calls or early morning texts to let me know he is finally off work and home safely, the surprise visits to vegas, the times I was upset and crying and even though he couldn't be there for me in person he would take a break from work and call doing everything he could to make me smile. The night he told me he loved me, the stupid emoticons on msn messenger. There was the emails and care packages while he was serving over seas when we were learning how to be just friends, the late night bowling and movie's over spring break... we had some really great times and I am so glad I had them.

Day Five: A song to match my mood

I am going to pick two.... First one is Stand Tall by The Dirty Heads. They are currently my favorite band. The song has a good message about standing tall and fighting for what you believe in. The next one is Don't Blink by Kenny Chesney. With all the changes going on with family moving away and with the previous post about my first love it really makes you think... You should enjoy every moment you have. Enjoy the people you have in your life, and absorbs the experiences because it won't last forever. Before you know it it's done. Lorin and I were just talking the other day about how we can't believe we are in our 2nd semester of our sophomore year in college! Graduation from high school still feels like it was yesterday.